MISSING LINK (J Neo Marvin)
I sit alone tonight, paralyzed
Grinding mental gears and eyes like saucers
Clutter expands on every surface
Do you think I’ll even pretend it matters?
Night after night I keep the lights on
The stereo and TV blaring
I can’t stand to live in darkness
And silence is so overbearing
I kiss your picture
I scream your name
Each day it hits me
All over again
Just like nothing
You’re here and gone
I wasn’t planning
To be alone
So I act out to keep from losing it completely
Staring at the yellow scraps of police tape on our bedroom door
I know that soon I must take action
Before my friends start running out of compassion
I kiss your picture
I scream your name
Each day it hits me
Over and over again
As if you were nothing
You’re here and gone
I wasn’t planning
To be alone
I remember every detail
Every second burns a hole inside of me
You were so cold I could not warm you
You had this crazy peaceful sleepy look on your face
Then I could hear my voice crying out for help
Was it for you or was it really for myself?
Felt like hours before the cops came tromping in
Took one look at you and then they tossed me out of the bedroom
I paced and sat and paced for hours
Until Juliette calmed me down and held my hand
Finally the suit in charge bothered to drop by
Transparently dripping contempt as he mumbled the requisite banal questions
Honey, it’s all over now
The sickening circus is all gone and so are you
I’m left to rummage through the pieces of our lives
And sing your beauty to a world that couldn’t care less
I kiss your picture
I scream your name
Each day it hits me
Over and over and over and over again
Like you never happened
You’re here and gone
I wasn’t planning
To be alone, no no no
I kiss your picture
I scream your name
Each day it hits me
Over and over again
Just like nothing
You’re here and gone
I wasn’t planning
To be alone.
©2001 J Neo Marvin (BMI)